Everything went as well as it had done on the first session. Conversation flowed easily and covered a vast amount of ground.
Since the previous review, I had slowed down my activity somewhat, especially in the direction of the Clearing Sessions in which I had only participated in two: Dee’s engaging session on play and Nigh’s (if I recall correctly) on Ancestral influences towards money.
On the first, I felt I had progressed sufficiently in the direction of play that I could accept and associate with it significantly and child-like playfulness was becoming part of my persona once again after the trials and repercussions of caring and loss.
The money session proved interesting and the catalyst for the next part of my new adventure. I hadn’t realised quite how my adoptive family’s attitudes to money had rubbed off on me and reading of my birth mother’s straitened circumstances around the time of my birth, struggling, as she did, even to pay my “keep” in my orphanage until I was adopted, bless her.
That led me to follow through on all the material related to and including Colette’s book. Because of time constraints and a huge travel and singing schedule, I hadn’t realised quite to skim-read and participate in the activities, but have forged a reasonable grasp of the material so far. I am hoping, after the hurry and flurry of Christmas and the New Year, to look at the subject more in depth as I feel it deserves and to answer and question quite a few concepts I didn’t realise I’d acquired over my 70 years.
Going back to the early childhood traumas which had been the catalyst for my embarking on MAP in the first instance, I felt (and still feel) MAP, truly is working wonders. I feel I have dispelled the worst of them, have laid a lot of ghosts to rest and, with the assistance of the invaluable MAP on the Go, on which I have also concentrated but on a daily basis, I am in a much better place than when I had started out. Thank you, one and all.
Going forward, as I say, I should like to follow through on the money item to see what more, if anything emerges and, I’ll feel, might have to be dealt with sooner, rather than later.
I feel as if I’m just embarking on an amazing journey, but to which purpose, I know not as yet. One step at a time, and we’ll all see what we shall see!
