Having caught up with the news of Sarah’s recent beautiful marriage, I was able to flow on naturally and easily with her to let her know how extraordinary life has continued to be for me.
I had just reached her latest session from 08/05/26, “I reject some parts of myself.” What a session it was! I had come through some incredibly enlightening and life-changing shifts to release youthful traumas which came back to haunt me after the loss in 2024 of my Soulmate. They were the obvious, clear signs grief had brought me to a very low place by the time I’d found Colette and MAP in October the following year.
What Sarah had brought into play in this latest session was a most perspicacious glance into more highly personal, private areas of my life I had tried to hide and to which I didn’t even want to face up to myself. It had started with my having written two significant pieces of self-reflection; the first and most personal of which I dared share with Sarah, the second arose directly from the vestiges of my grief and was elicited by Nigh’s “Bargaining” Grief-related session and I copied both ladies into that piece. Both were equally cathartic so, by the time Sarah and I enjoyed our Breakthrough Session earlier today, it felt like her “Rejecting parts of myself” were written specifically with me in mind. Of course, it hadn’t been. It occasioned me to open up where I could not before and embrace and include these concealed elements of my behaviour, personality and psyche so I could allow them to share the new self love and freedom from blame and shame MAP has brought to light since I started working with everyone. It resembled a “mopping-up” exercise, clearing the last stumbling-blocks to full alignment. It’s no use accepting the acceptable parts of myself if I can’t love and be tender with those parts I’d prefer not to acknowledge. They are still me, after all.
I feel complete. I am happy to see how even those formerly shameful and upsetting aspects have been part of what has brought me to reach where I am now. Why, therefore, should they not be afforded the same respect?!
The exercises have made me question the rôle of my traditionally-taught “fire and brimstone” style of Christian perception. Now I see God WANTS me to be free, happy, blessed and fully loved and He is happy to meet me where I am, rather than having me do myself down at every turn of the former negative and condemnation thinking. How can we reconcile Perfectionism with our natural characters who fall so short of God’s exacting standards? We can’t! That is why He sent His Son - to rely on HIM, not ourselves. Our self-perceived “control” gives us anything but! Let’s get over it and open up to our Source. That alignment with Him and his Will for us is what life ought to be about. Then we truly know abundance.
It feels like surfing the biggest, highest, most exhilarating waves which open even greater soace and freedom for Supreme Being to offer ever-more-increasing blessings and bounty to us. Our vibes are ready and share with our wider Universe in a self-perpetuating, continuous and abundant ripple effect which is for our own good but which also positively affects so very many more of us. It’s the only way to be!